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Nostalgia

2011-11-30T20:43:00.001-07:00

Remembering icq

... I am way too nostalgic.

Long time no see

2011-11-20T13:05:00.001-07:00

Long time no see 時間過得很快
今日明日成日轉得快
Long time no see 頭髮脫得很快
一樣唔係其實有點怪
Long time no see 城市變得很快
花樹林木全部滿死哂
Long time no see 朋友變得很快
因為其實其實冇得解

老友為乜碰面碰見拎歪塊面
咪去扮好掛念無謂去演
你繼續玩冷面你繼續好友善
各有路走兩面然後去
你繼續走正面我繼續走背面
有眼淚係裡面懷念變悼念

拜拜........

28

2011-11-03T20:56:00.003-06:00

Another year. Another drunken night. Older but no wiser.Another phone number, another dinner. More drinks but no closer.One more cancellation, another lonely night.Laying on her lap, but nothing more.

Square One

2011-10-13T05:36:00.001-06:00

Why does it always feel like I'm back to square one?...

I never knew another like her in my lifetime.
So now I travel through a tunnel of space, without a place,
On the face of this earth,
With this pain gettin' worse,
Driving me insane or at least I'm touching the brink,
Of sanity to think of how I can link or contact her.
I was a fool before but more wise after the fact.
I'm analyzin' how I'm wantin' her back,
And wonderin' exactly where she could be on the map.
I'm just sittin' here, spinnin' the world on one finger.
Reoccurring thoughts of this brown skin singer

2011-09-25T18:07:00.000-06:00

"When my poodle went blind at eights years of age, she would panic if alone in strange surroundings. My cat, Blue, would stay close to her within touching distance and Tina would be alright. Blue was my hero."

It can be strange how the smallest thing makes my heart melt.

"I used to believe in destiny."

2011-09-19T21:30:00.000-06:00

I stopped believing.
Everyday I believe a little less, and a little less... and it sucks.

~ How I Met Your Mother

Why does such an awesome funny show illustrate so perfectly how I feel?

Be Free

2011-09-18T21:14:00.001-06:00

Why do we have such a hard time expressing our emotions, and how we really feel, to each other? We keep it on the inside. We say one thing, but we really mean what's said plus just that bit more, that you're supposed to know.

Men or women, lovers or friends, sometimes especially family... we all do it. Why is it that once we become adults, we also stop speaking freely?

And we call it being"grown up". Guilty as charged.

and here we go

2011-09-17T18:26:00.000-06:00

I made week 2. Still bored as fuck, still don't really know anyone. Not sure where my confidence has fled to.

But it'll do.

I'll make it so.

Other than that, life's alright. Slowly getting out of debt and paying my bills after my first pay cheque in a month. On the road back to normacy.

Good or bad...?

Definitely gonna miss the sunny days with autumn peeking its way here in Calgary.

"It's never too late, Barney."

2011-09-12T21:29:00.000-06:00

~ How I Met Your Mother

Maybe there's always, hope. Maybe all we oughta do, is to believe.

Maybe.

First week

2011-09-10T19:39:00.001-06:00

A 4-day first work week, thanks to a long weekend. I survivied.

It was fuckin' boring.

But... I made it.

Feeling tons of pressure, from within myself, to proof myself. I used to never be stressed over work, but it's all changed. I question my abilities, my competence, my skills, my fit.

To better days......

Shining Star

2011-09-02T10:57:00.002-06:00

The Roots ft. D'Angelo

Then eventually flow off to loss communication,
I call the lost store, information,
And with time forgot it.
It's not like I'm in tears about it,
But the fact of the matter remains that I missed her.

Shrek

2011-08-28T20:32:00.002-06:00

It was 10 years ago. The year was 2001, once upon a time I had a date. My first real date.

A few months later, it all went to hell and she left me for her ex-bf, leaving me broken and torn. I never knew why, to this day.
The more things change, the more they stay the same.

The Roots - Now or Never

2011-08-27T20:12:00.002-06:00

I feeling change is an absolute certainty
'Cause what's coming on is a state of emergency

I received an offer of employment, and 2 days later... I accepted it. I hesitated, because it was outside of my industry. In commercial real estate, once you're out, there's no getting back in. I had other offers in the industry, with much lower compensation. I struggled, until I realized there was no win-win for both my heart and bank balance. I grew up and accepted the truth that few ever accomplish what they truly want to.

I once chased the dream of building a major shopping centre, or office retail mixed use high rise.

The dream is dead.

Cash is king. C.R.E.A.M.

Bitch never done shit for me

2011-08-22T02:59:00.000-06:00

Well now she's just another story
When we pass around that 40

- Ko, Capable

2:29 AM

2011-08-20T02:34:00.000-06:00

The movie is done. Booze & poutine are finished, and friends are gone. A good night out.

What now.

The streets are empty and the night is beautiful. Nothing more, nothing less.

Just fading into darkness.

Days of Change

2011-08-18T08:52:00.000-06:00

I had a dream about the mid 2000s. I was hanging with some old friends, at a new lounge. It was with familiar faces that I seldom see nowadays. And then I actually went to an internet cafe to play Starcraft.

And I thought to myself wtf... I have only even been to an internet cafe like twice in my life time!

It was familiar. Things were nice. Things were comfortable. Things felt right.

Can I go back?

Subtle Changes

2011-08-16T21:18:00.001-06:00

I am listening to a local mainstream radio station right now, really listening. It's been a year or two since I have done that, always sticking to my own music collection or the university campus radio station.

Surprisingly, I like this.

I had an interview today. I think I came across well, and they liked me. I went in with 4 hours of sleep, only time will tell. It was for a business analyst position outside of commercial real estate. I've decided this time around that if I don't find something I'm satisfy with in the industry, it's time to move on.

It appears that I can't dream forever, not in this life.

I just heard on the radio, 'Men baffle me.' Women baffle me. Trying to understand a woman's heart and mind is to commit a suicide of the mind.

2011-08-16T00:49:00.001-06:00

I'm up again, at the wee hour of the night. I

One Night

2011-08-15T23:09:00.006-06:00

I got a question if a man can make his own heaven
Can he make his path to get to it too?

I think I know what she's thinking. She's obviously noticed, and she doesn't want to change a thing. She's comfortable with how we are, keeping our distance. She doesn't want to get close, because she's afraid to get hurt again. And probably mostly because she isn't attracted to me after all. I was foolish to think otherwise, based on one single drunken night. After what some people asked, pointed out, and egged me on, I thought we were more than.

But it was only the alcohol.

Just another episode in my 27 years of fucking around, not the literal kind. Soon to be 30 years old, and I have no fucking clue about life. No career, no girlfriend, only debt.

If there was a formula, I'd like to see it. I'd give the world for it.

Once upon a time, I thought it involved a single blue rose.

2011-08-02T18:37:00.002-06:00

I eat, because I feel empty inside.

2011-07-25T22:36:00.000-06:00

I've quit my job, for the fourth time. Wishing that things were more managable, laid out for me. I'm tired, emotionally, from everything. Sex, the opposite sex, career, family. I want things to be moving, but I want to be at rest. I feel useless, helpless, worthless.

Take me away. Fly me to the moon.

Where did I go wrong? I'd like to know the answer. I feel more and more foolish as each year goes by. The more I learn, the less I know. The more I know, the less I wish I knew.

Came in Brave

2011-07-03T23:32:00.000-06:00

- Ladyhawk

Out getting high on the back porch
I sing to the empties and cigarette butts
And I know that the song is about you
And I'd sing to your face, but I've got no guts

And the mice are an angel choir tonight
They squeak right in on the hallelujah
I'll clear my head and close my eyes
And I'll get up late and I'll give up hope in the end.

4 years later

2011-06-11T00:26:00.002-06:00

And I'm back at square one.

WTF.

What the fuck.

Somebody, show me the way. Anyway.

2011-05-30T23:02:00.002-06:00

But we love each other.
I know. But are you happy?
No.
Then what are we doing?

2011-05-23T22:17:00.000-06:00

You wanna know how I feel?
I feel hurt.

"He'll always be hopeful, so he'll always be happy."

2011-05-02T22:04:00.000-06:00

"We are who we are. I hate the lottery." - Thirteen

Do it again

2011-02-08T23:08:00.000-07:00

I go in with my head up, chocolate blazing... and come up once again empty handed for Valentines.

My car got stuck in the snow for 20 mins on my way to pick up the gourmet chocolates in -20 celcius yesterday.

Why?

And it's true I hurt too

2011-01-31T23:18:00.000-07:00

I'm sick of opening up and getting torn apart. I wanna stop but I can't.

I wish I could I could have quit you, I wish I never missed you

Obsessed with the thought of you, the pain just grew and grew

I used to be love struck, now I'm just fucked up

I Wish

2011-01-18T21:06:00.000-07:00

I wish I was little bit taller,
I wish I was a baller
I wish I had a girl who looked good I would call her
I wish I had a rabbit in a hat with a bat and a '64 Impala

It was a beautiful day.

2011-01-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

I had a date Friday night. Not a real date, but it felt kinda like one. She's a friend of a friend, and lives less than a block from my condo.

Maybe...

Somebody slap me across the side of the head before I get too hopeful, like always.

...............

In 20 Years

2010-12-05T22:01:00.000-07:00

As we learn to do more things, we seem to actually know less and less. The more entertainment we get, the less happiness we feel. More girlfriends, and less lovers.

And it's only been ten years.

It's been an exhausting trip to Beijing and Hong Kong the past few weeks. A good trip. Part family, part fun, part introspective.

I didn't pick up any new conclusions, but the mind has expanded in multiple directions. Nothing concrete or enlightening, but eye opening.

If anyone is reading this, early Merry Christmas to you.

Heartless

2010-11-08T22:23:00.000-07:00

I. don't know how to do anything anymore.

The Coin Laundry

2010-10-25T23:18:00.002-06:00

Darkness

2010-10-10T08:34:00.000-06:00

I thought it’d be amazing. I thought it’d be the end to all my troubles. I thought it’d be a new beginning. In a sense it was, but it hasn’t. Things haven’t changed. What’s grim is still grim. What’s under the shadows is still there.

Now, what?

You know there is a lot of darkness out here
We watch it all the time
When I’m busy looking at the darkness and
Bang there’s some darkness over there

Titleless

2010-08-30T03:11:00.000-06:00

And here I am, three in the morning. Can't sleep. The mind keeps going, about shitty things, crazy things, routine things, ridiculous things. But never a good thing.

Do you ever wonder how everyone around you's lives would be different if you never existed? Or simply disappeared? I think lots of people do... and probabaly over estimate, what we mean to others. Family, yes definitely. But from there on... as the days go by.

Sometimes I find the chilly air soothing. When I take it in, and it chills to the bone. It's letting go, and accepting the inevitable. Coming to terms with the shittyness of life. No more fighting, no more strain.

Alcohol numbs the mind, taking away the dark thoughts. It's only a means to an end.

Mad World

2010-08-14T16:15:00.001-06:00

2010-07-29T20:37:00.000-06:00

Sick of everything.

This world ain't about how hard you work, how determined you are, or how genuine you are. It's all chance, and malice. That's all that there is. All.

Who has the answers? I wonder, I turn to my elders
They aged and experienced, but they can't even tell ya
or tell me, that there'll be light at the end of the road
Cause they don't even know
- 2pac/krazy

Chasin' Skirts

2010-07-24T23:42:00.000-06:00

Ditched again.

Why did I think it would be different this time? Thinking back, I have no friggin clue. She's done it before, why wouldn't she do it again?

I'm tired of chasing skirts. No, I'm not turning gay.

Now what is there left to do?

Scramble

2010-07-22T23:17:00.000-06:00

I thought I knew. I thought I came to where I am without wavering. I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but I thought it was going to be okay.

Somewhere, somehow, I didn't just take a wrong step or a detour - I lost the destination. I lost the map... and the compass. It's a jungle, and it is everyone for themselves.

I built the fire, a temporary shelter. But it's destroyed night after night, without a thing I can do about it. What options do I have? Keep on like this with no end in sight. Wander out to feed the wolves. Fuck it all.

Months, years, and a decade pass by. It's as if time has stood still. Not a thing is different, except for my age and innocence. No longer naive or hopeful.

I scramble, for any way out.

A Short Story

2010-07-04T23:11:00.001-06:00

I am witnessing unconditional love.

It didn't seem like much at first, and I didn't think much of it.
But it's become apparent.

JM is pregnant, and due in August. It was unexpected, it was a surprise. She and CJ had just starting dating a week before they found out the news. They decided to keep the baby. CJ was supposed to join the army this summer, finally having done all the tests and various security approvals, but he declined in the end. JM is working p/t still, since CJ no longer has a permanent job due to the army plans. They decided to get married, with the wedding taking place a few weeks ago. There was never plans for this, until news of the baby. Hell there was never plans for this to be a long term relationship. But it happened. CJ has had a brutal experience with his now divorced wife, losing just about everything he owned in the process. But here and now, he pressed on.

Everything sounds simply so ordinary, but really extraodinary.
How envious I am. How happy for them I am.

2010-06-22T00:49:00.002-06:00

You've broken my heart fifteen times. Fifteen.. because that's when I lost count. What's left of it isn't enough for me to move on anymore.

And that was from 3 years ago.

2010-06-20T23:04:00.000-06:00

Congratulations C & J. And to the forthcoming little one.

Where have the years gone? I still remember playing king of the hill in grade 7.

House. Thanksgiving.

2010-06-04T22:34:00.003-06:00

There is no us. There never will be.

Looks Just Like the Sun

2010-05-31T22:45:00.000-06:00

Reflects how I feel, just so right.

House

2010-05-17T21:40:00.002-06:00

What do you have in your life seriously?
I don't love you.

You said there was time.
There was, but it's run out.

You don't wanna be like me.
Because I'm the most screwed up person in the world.

House. Cuddy.

2010-05-10T21:58:00.000-06:00

"What happened next?"
Nothing happened next.

Puerto Vallarta

2010-05-09T22:00:00.000-06:00

It was warm. It was kinda fun. I looked around, and I saw nothing but bliss. The resort was beautiful. Everywhere was so clean, everything looked so perfect. The sun was not quite setting yet, the temperature still hovering around mid to high twenties. The food was delicious, Mexican, Mediterranean delicious. I drank some of my dark rum and coke, and exhaled.

There was only one problem. I'm just alone and miserable.

No magic, no love.

2010-04-28T10:04:00.003-06:00

But rum doesn't feel the emptiness.

Broke into the old apartment

2010-04-25T21:45:00.004-06:00

Only memories, fading memories
Blending into dull tableaux

I want them back
.........................

Going to Mexico on Saturday, one week. I am excited, but no longer like years ago when I first went to Dominican. It just ain't the same. Knowing that magic won't happen, not being able to believe anymore. Back then I'd think good things would happen. Now after three years, I no longer believe.
.............................

I know we don't live here anymore
We bought an old house on the Danforth
She loves me and her body keeps me warm
I am happy there
But this is where we used to live

2010-03-07T21:00:00.002-07:00

It's a hopeless situation.

hahaha

2010-03-04T19:54:00.000-07:00

2010-02-27T19:13:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile.

House

2010-01-25T21:58:00.001-07:00

What is it? What do you feel?
I don't know... but it hurts.

"It was fun, that's it. And now it's over."

2010-01-03T19:58:00.005-07:00

She told me it was a form of abandonment. That is what I should have felt. The fact that I did not have my parents by my side for a period of my childhood/teenage years was probably, very likely, the cause of my issues. I never thought of it that way. And only now do I feel that, just a bit.

That is what my first therapy session brought me, a few years ago.

In retrospect, maybe she was right - about the abandonment, but not so much focused on my parents. My whole life I feel I have been abandoned by people. Not in particular my parents, but everyone. And I still do.

"My life is like a revolving door. They just come and go."

93 'til Infinity

2010-01-02T00:18:00.000-07:00

Congratulations

2009-12-23T00:52:00.003-07:00

Christmas time. Life's cruel.

It hurts. It stings. It's crazy. I saw it coming, but I really didn't. I was asking for it, but I really didn't.

But I really didn't.
Really.

Why is there no story book ending? Why.
'Coz it's real life? Or is it just me, 'coz I see it happening.

What. Why. How. Tell me. Explain to me. Justify to me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

"This way... is a water slide that takes you further every day, be cool..."

House

2009-12-13T19:44:00.000-07:00

Why did you choose me?
There is something about you. It`s like you hurt too.

2009-12-06T21:13:00.001-07:00

Someday, I want to use this.

"Are you ignoring me, or are you just letting my charm wash over you."

2009-12-06T12:25:00.001-07:00

Lyrics | Green Day lyrics - 21 Guns lyrics

"She pulled me out of the darkness."

2009-12-05T00:35:00.001-07:00

Where is she?

2009-12-02T21:27:00.001-07:00

"When the love is gone, move on."

Black Dahlia

2009-12-02T00:26:00.002-07:00

"And it's true, I hurt too.
Remember, I loved you."

House

2009-11-30T21:51:00.001-07:00

"Because if you die, I'm alone."
I already am.

House

2009-11-30T21:51:00.000-07:00

"Because if you die, I'm alone."
I already am.

The Answer?

2009-11-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

It's one thing to know you should be happy, but completely another to be able to feel happy.

House, it's thanksgiving.

2009-11-23T21:06:00.001-07:00

"So I decided I'd rather be happy, than smart."

Some Things

2009-11-23T20:27:00.001-07:00

Some things, are just not meant to be?

Is that what we like to think when things aren't well, just to let ourselves feel a little better?

It didn't work out, maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

Or was it really, it didn't work out, because we could've done otherwise... yet, as one of us took a step forward, the other would take two steps back.

Some things. I just don't understand.

Some things, I wish I didn't have to understand.

"When the love is gone, move on."

2009-11-22T20:00:00.004-07:00

And I texted her, and we went for lunch. I gave her the gift from Australia, that has been sitting in a dark corner of my closet. I didn't expect her to come out. I didn't expect her to accept the gift. I didn't know what to expect, and I don't really know what I am looking for. I don't know if she's seeing anyone, I am afraid to ask.

And here I go, again.

And it was.

2009-11-22T19:52:00.004-07:00

It was the company Christmas party. Everything seemed like it was going to be great. I had a beautiful friend as my date for the night. She insisted on driving so that I could drink and have a good time. But it wasn't. Something was off. Everything was off. The more I socialized with company, the more food and drink I consumed, the more saddened I was.

It's as they say, to be feeling lonely within a crowd of friends.

Happy Merry Christmas, folks.

Happy Belated Birthday

2009-11-02T22:58:00.001-07:00

to me.

2009-10-28T22:51:00.001-06:00

Would you take care of me?...

I Reminisce

2009-10-27T00:01:00.003-06:00

But there is nothing to reminisce about. I realize there has never been anything. What a fool.

The Roots. How I Got Over. ?

2009-10-26T23:44:00.003-06:00

Before I go back to the heavenly father
Pray for me if it ain’t too much brother
Whatever don’t break me or make me stronger
I feel like I can’t take too much longer
It’s too much lyin’
And too much fryin’
I’m all cried out cause I grew up cryin’
They all got a sales pitch I ain’t buyin’
They tryin’ to convince me that I ain’t tryin’
We uninspired
We unadmired
And tired and sick of being sick and tired.

2009-10-14T22:03:00.001-06:00

Silence

2009-10-14T20:34:00.007-06:00

What happened. What happened to the me who questions why prostitution is illegal. The morality of aborptions, euthanaiza. The one who doesn't just say yes or no just because that's how the traditional view has always been or if it's the general mainstream opinion. The death penalty, why it's deserved, why it's ok? The one with a curious mind that listens to arguments. Does god exist? Could god be an alien? Could there be our god as well as aliens existing in the same universe?...

That me has died. In silence.

I don't know how it happened, and I don't know how to bring him back. Because once again just about everything has lost meaning to me. I stopped caring and I don't know how to get back. Because I just don't care. The first time, the person is usually just saying it. But after repeated realizations, some things actually start to sink in.

The only link left is my family, whom I love. The previous generation... but don't have my own "family".

rainy days

2009-10-14T00:31:00.003-06:00

"Smile, and give me reason to keep on believin'
That everything ain't misleadin"

original author

2009-09-30T17:20:00.002-06:00

Have you ever felt like finding a hole in the ground to hide?
Not just ashamed of yourself, and everything else.

Just broken.

"I want to get better."

2009-09-21T23:09:00.003-06:00

The season premiere of House really struck a chord with me. I'm generally not a big tv person... but it was just so good and close to home.

Now I just need a happy ending like in the episode.

she keeps on passin`me by

2009-09-14T00:17:00.003-06:00

I am sick of how it feels.

When my eyes see you, and the way it makes me feel.
How beautiful you are. With your smile, your eyes, your hair, your everything.
Even your imperfections makes you perfect in my eyes.
But I should never tell you how I feel, when I know it`s a lost cause.

I haven't gone as far as asking if I could get with her
I just play it by ear and hope she gets the picture

But she`s seeing someone. Or she thinks of me only as a friend.
There`s never romance. It seems to come along with the asshole persona.

Nice guys don`t always finish last, sometimes we don`t get to finish.

I broke my rule

2009-09-12T01:26:00.004-06:00

To never drink without company, alone.

Now there she goes again, the dopest Ethiopian
And now the world around me be gets movin in slow motion
when-ever she happens to walk by - why does the apple of my eye
overlook and disregard my feelings no matter how much I try?

"I guess a twinkle in her eye is just a twinkle in her eye."

2009-09-10T17:13:00.003-06:00

It happened again. Not exactly like last time. But close enough.
I will never learn. She's always seeing someone else.
Is she saying that just to blow me off nicely?
I don't know. I will never know.

Girls at work. Never should. But it's hard when you interact with them more than everyone else.
Again again.

"I am trying to be what you're dying to see."

"I am trying to be what you're dying to see."

2009-09-08T21:45:00.001-06:00

2009-09-01T23:31:00.000-06:00

2009-08-30T21:19:00.003-06:00

I love her more than anything, and I want to spend my life with her.
She just never feels the same way.

2009-07-19T22:49:00.003-06:00

You know what you do when you're feeling empty inside? You eat, and eat and eat... until you can't anymore.

Then just a little bit of that emptiness is filled. Only a little corner. But it's better than nothing.

Race

2009-07-11T13:55:00.003-06:00

I thought it didn't matter no more. I thought it was nothing but a shade of color on our skins. I thought that in this day and age, we've gone pass that - especially in a so called multicultural society like Canada.

I was wrong.

It's never gone away. It never will. It always will be.

Realization is very painful, may I add.

ILoveYouBethCooper

2009-07-10T20:03:00.002-06:00

yea.

Memories of Nobody

2009-07-07T23:24:00.002-06:00

Because there was nothing worth remembering for.
Nobody is curious about me.
Nobody, is talking to me.

Nobody.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning, and think to myself
what if this is it for me.

TV Drama

2009-07-06T22:26:00.002-06:00

She says she thinks we have this special bond.
She adores me, and really likes me a lot. That she sees us being together for a long long time.
She says that we have so much in common.
She's so comfortable with me, and she's physically attracted to me.

She also says that of all the other guys. Bitch.

Another moment after a drunken outing...

2009-07-04T01:02:00.003-06:00

I ain't perfect.
Nobody is.
But imperfection just isn't gonna work when it comes to me?

I miss you. I want you.
I don't even know who you are.

How pathetic.
How bizarre.
How sad.

2009-06-21T17:37:00.004-06:00

The hits just keep coming. They don't stop.

Cut me a break? They won't, so I try to make my own break, but the world just won't have it.

Pharcyde - Passing Me By

When I dream of fairy tales I think of me and Shelly
See shes my type of hype and I cant stand when brothers tell me
That I should quit chasin' and look for something better
But the smile that she shows makes me a go-getter
I haven't gone as far as asking if I could get with her
I just play it by ear and hope she gets the picture
I'm shootin' for her heart, got my finger on the trigger
She could be my broad, and I could be her nigga
But, all I can do is stare...
Back as kids we used to kiss when we played truth or dare
Now shes more sophisticated, highly edu-ma-cated
Not at all over-rated, I think I need a prayer
To get in her boots and it looks rather dry
I guess a twinkle in her eye is just a twinkle in her eye
Although shes crazy stepping, Ill try to stop her stride
Cause I wont have no more of this passin' me by

Now there she goes again, the dopest ethiopian
And now the world around me be gets movin' in slow motion
When-ever she happens to walk by - why does the apple of my eye
Overlook and disregard my feelings no matter how much I try?
Wait, no, I did not really pursue my little princess with persistence;
And I was so low-key that she was unaware of my existence
From a distance I desired, secretly admired her;
Wired her a letter to get her, and it went:
My dear, my dear, my dear, you do not know me but I know you very well
Now let me tell you about the feelings I have for you
When I try, or make some sort of attempt, I symp
Damn I wish I wasn't such a wimp!
cause then I would let you know that I love you so
And if I was your man then I would be true
The only lying I would do is in the bed with you
Then I signed sincerely the one who loves you dearly, ps love me tender
The letter came back three days later: return to sender
Damn!

She keeps on passin' me by...

2009-06-20T22:01:00.003-06:00

You always told me it's darkest just before dawn.

You're wrong, again.

There's no light to be found in this darkness. None.

The past is gone It went by, like dusk to dawn

2009-06-17T23:51:00.000-06:00

I’m just a regular everyday normal guy... When I go to the clubs I wait in line Mutha Fucka.

2009-06-13T21:07:00.000-06:00

Relationships

2009-06-11T23:33:00.000-06:00

I came across this on some random site. And man, did it hit me.

Man's lying on the street some punk's chopped off his head

2009-06-07T23:19:00.001-06:00

I'm the only one who stops to see if he's dead
Mmm...
Turns out he's dead.

2009-05-25T01:10:00.005-06:00

But if you're trying to break my heart
Your plan is flawed from the start
You can't break this heart, it's liquid
It melted when I met you

I'm sitting at this table called love
Staring down at the irony of life
How come we've reached this fork in the road
And yet it cuts like a knife

It makes no sense.

2009-05-20T23:08:00.003-06:00

It's weird.

My camera breaks - the moment I come home.

I move out in less than two weeks - I don't feel nervous at all.

They tell me you really can't be too nice at work - tried, tested and true.

I have a bad back - but at age 25?!...

The tour guide told us there was only one tunnel giving access to Harvana - what if there were a multi-vehicle accident?

I'll always be the token Asian.

Everybody's friends with you - yet nobody loves you except for your parents.

Every moment is a chance - but only as good as the lottery.

Drinking (Urban Dictionary)

2009-05-19T21:46:00.004-06:00

The act of pursuing happiness and self destruction at the same time.

2009-05-05T22:24:00.001-06:00