House

What is it? What do you feel?
I don't know... but it hurts.

"It was fun, that's it. And now it's over."

She told me it was a form of abandonment. That is what I should have felt. The fact that I did not have my parents by my side for a period of my childhood/teenage years was probably, very likely, the cause of my issues. I never thought of it that way. And only now do I feel that, just a bit.

That is what my first therapy session brought me, a few years ago.

In retrospect, maybe she was right - about the abandonment, but not so much focused on my parents. My whole life I feel I have been abandoned by people. Not in particular my parents, but everyone. And I still do.

"My life is like a revolving door. They just come and go."