"Because if you die, I'm alone."
I already am.


"Because if you die, I'm alone."
I already am.

The Answer?

It's one thing to know you should be happy, but completely another to be able to feel happy.

House, it's thanksgiving.

"So I decided I'd rather be happy, than smart."

Some Things

Some things, are just not meant to be?

Is that what we like to think when things aren't well, just to let ourselves feel a little better?

It didn't work out, maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

Or was it really, it didn't work out, because we could've done otherwise... yet, as one of us took a step forward, the other would take two steps back.

Some things. I just don't understand.

Some things, I wish I didn't have to understand.

"When the love is gone, move on."

And I texted her, and we went for lunch. I gave her the gift from Australia, that has been sitting in a dark corner of my closet. I didn't expect her to come out. I didn't expect her to accept the gift. I didn't know what to expect, and I don't really know what I am looking for. I don't know if she's seeing anyone, I am afraid to ask.

And here I go, again.

And it was.

It was the company Christmas party. Everything seemed like it was going to be great. I had a beautiful friend as my date for the night. She insisted on driving so that I could drink and have a good time. But it wasn't. Something was off. Everything was off. The more I socialized with company, the more food and drink I consumed, the more saddened I was.

It's as they say, to be feeling lonely within a crowd of friends.

Happy Merry Christmas, folks.