I hope I haven't taken up too much of your time

- chicago

Suppose you was a little cat residing in a person's flat
who fed you fish and scratched your ears
You'd notice him
Suppose you was a woman wed been sleeping in a double bed
beside one man for seven years
You'd notice him

A human being is made of more than air
With all that bulk you're bound to see him there
Unless that human being next to you, is
Unimpressive, undistinguished
you know, who

Should've been my name, Mister Cellophane
Cause you can look right through me
Walk right by me, and never know I'm there
I tell ya

Cellophane, Mister Cellophane
Should've been my name, Mister Cellophane
Cause you can look right through me
Walk right by me, and never know I was there

Never even know... I'm there

[spoken]
I hope I haven't taken up too much of your time.

Times are hard when things have got no meaning

- oasis

Made a meal and threw it up on Sunday
I’ve, got a lot of things to learn
Said I would and I'll be leaving one day
Before my heart starts to burn

So what’s the matter with you, sing me something new
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go, away

Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I’ve found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in
The things we find behind the door

So what’s the matter with you, sing me something new
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go away

Stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it’s gonna be
Nobody knows, yeah nobody knows
The way it’s gonna be

If you're leaving will you take me with you
I’m tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I can never give you
My heart will never be your home

So what’s the matter with you, sing me something new
Don’t you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go away

Thoughts

What are your thoughts on interracial dating?
How about in particular between Asians and Caucasians?
Does the gender for which is which matter?

What you think, I'd like to know.

Why?

Do you believe in God?
I don't.

The world is not a paradise. Good people aren't always treated right. Assholes tend not to get what they deserve. Things don't always work themselves out at the end. There is rarely justice. If you want to get ahead in our society, you've got to cheat and bully your away around. Play fair, and your odds of success are greatly reduced. Yes, it happens to the few lucky honest people. The rest of them get screwed while the ones responsible are moving up the ladder. Good deeds and a pure heart seems no longer admirable. It's your salary and the things you own, and the crowd you know that defines you.

There is no God.
If there was such a being, it definitely does not have the sense of justice and fairness that we expect God to have. Maybe our reality is just a lesser level of hell.

Liberation

I might have left fifteen grand on the table.

But I've won back my pride, dignity, and principles.
Times are dark.. and it just keeps getting darker.
Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

- Andain, Beautiful Things

The Line

So how do I know when we've crossed the line? The separation between just friends and lovers. Between merely living, and heavenly bliss. Is there a "time's up", where we cross the line after a certain period of time? Is there a thing we do, like when we kiss, when we make love, that we cross that line? Is it when we connect, on a certain intellectual and emotional level, like no other?

All those things could be friends, it surely seems. But also lovers. How do I cross this imaginary boundary to the other side. Find me a way, and you have my heart and soul.

I do not know. And sometimes I wonder if I'll ever know. Where is that line? A step forward, or a distance of inches...

Happiness is a state of mind.

- who knows

Yes, happiness is a state of mind - so is sadness, loneliness, nervousness, and every other emotion we feel at any given moment. Induced by external factors, things, people... happenings. Good or bad, whether we like it or not, we experience and then we're forced to feel. No choice. No, we don't get to choose. You say it's beautiful? Yes, it is.. every single feeling we get is a treasure. It's like a snow flake fading away. And then there's nothing left to hold on to.

Happiness is a one way street.

Take me to the place where you go, where nobody knows.. if it's night or day.

- oasis

The show was brilliant. They did not disappoint, sounding as good if not better than on their records. The songs I really wanted to hear, they played.. Wonderwall, Supernova, Don't look back at anger, Champagne Supernova. It was great until we walked out of the venue and it was pouring outside.


I wonder what it feels like to be famous. To be loathed and loved, to be talked about, to be on the papers, on the radio, the internet. To matter.

It feels as tho I do not really exist, I'm merely a fragment of my own imagination. How bizarre.